My Breakfast with Audrey Hepburn

I watched Breakfast at Tiffany's for the first time today. I know...it's a classic, and I'm a little embarrassed that I've never seen it before. I've actually never seen a lot of classics before, so I'm doing my best to change that. I decided to start with this one since it's on Netflix, and I recently went to Madame Tussaud's wax museum in Hollywood and posed with a wonderful sculpture of Audrey Hepburn. I'm sure a lot of you will disagree with me, but it was just OK in my opinion. Yes it was cute, but I'm not adding it to my favorites. I do have to admit that Audrey is charming and completely lovable in spite of the fact that her character is flighty and just a tad annoying. And that poor cat...

Finally Fall

Yay it's finally fall in Los Angeles! I had such a hard time getting out of bed this morning because I was so comfy under the covers. Now, I'm so excited to be able to pile on cozy layers and wear my boots without looking silly. I'm such a major boot person. Oh, and I had my first gingerbread latte of the year yesterday at Starbucks. Smiles all around!

Puppy Backpack

Since the name of this blog is just ":)," mostly because I couldn't think of a clever name, I figured I'd share some things that make me smile. Sometimes it's the littlest things that can brighten my day, and this is definitely one of them. I don't know any puppy that would calmly hang out like that, but this made me smile today. 

Beach in November

I can't believe how hot it is in Los Angeles right now! The weather is really starting to freak me out. Global warming at its finest I guess. It's still summer in November! And then it's supposed to be back to the 60s later this week. I know, I know...why am I complaining about gorgeous sunny weather right? It's not so bad except for the fact that my place doesn't have any air conditioning. I'll probably head to the beach a little bit later once it gets too hot up here. Not too shabby, eh?

How's your journey going?

Ohhh I got 7 views on October 24th. I'm coming up in the world!

Anyway, I didn't end up getting that part. They decided to "go in a different direction" which really has nothing to do with me, but I can't help but take it personally. I've just gotten so frustrated lately, and I have no idea what to do about it. I work hard, am prepared for auditions, take classes, and anything else I can imagine, so how does it come so easily to other people? But I just have to remind myself that you never know what their journey was like, and to never compare your beginning to someone else's middle.

Close, but no cigar

Ugh post-audition thoughts are the worst. First of all, they either liked you or you didn't, and I can't control that. The only thing I can control is how prepared I was and if I felt like I did a good job or not. The problem with that is my evaluation of how I did is obviously based on how they responded. So either they liked me or they didn't. So let's say I just got a "thank you" and I leave. In which case I feel like I bombed it. Then I go into the downward spiral of thinking that I suck at life and will never get anywhere. Poop. Or I just tell myself that it is what it is and move on. Obviously the healthier option. Now here's where I get a little crazy. What if I did a great job. The casting directors loved me, and I get a callback, and the producers loved me, and my agent gets an email saying how much everyone loved me. Yay! I'm on top of the world, right? For about five seconds after which I start banging my head against the wall waiting for the call saying that I booked it. Everyone loved me! Why haven't I gotten the call?!?! It's funny how being so close feels so much worse than completely missing the mark.

The grass is always greener

Sheesh I've been so busy for the past two days. Especially since I live kind of far from the city, when I do have a few things to do in LA, I'll stay out all day. I've learned not to waste time at the mall because I always end up buying something I don't really need. Now, I'm seriously looking forward to doing nothing tomorrow. But then I'll go crazy doing nothing. It's a vicious cycle...I guess the grass really is always greener on the other side.