The Attractor Factor

I started listening to an audio book called The Attractor Factor by Joe Vitale. Normally I'm not into all that hocus pocus mumbo jumbo, but the book does make some points that I'm going to try to incorporate in my life.

First of all, I don't really believe in "spirit guides" (notice the quotation marks I added...), but Joe writes writes that it's more comforting to believe that there is some guiding spirit whatever that may be to you.

Most of the book talks about the energy that you are sending out to the universe, kind of like "The Secret," a book which I also read and thought was a load of silliness. But Joe states that you not only have to define your goals but also follow your instincts in how to achieve them. Yes, you have to set a goal in motion, not just send your energies out to the universe and wait for happiness to come to you.

Another great part in the book so far is how the energy you give off is also reflected in other people. For example, if you don't trust yourself to do a good job on a certain project, then your boss won't trust you to do a good job either. I'm sure you've heard it before...confidence is key, and other people will pick up on any negative vibes you're sending out there. This can also be applies to other aspects like relationships. Don't people always say that you can't truly be loved until you love yourself?

Continuing on with the confidence aspect, you have to release all of your fears of accomplishing your goals because they will only stand in your way. By letting your fears cloud your energy, you will be keeping yourself from taking the necessary steps in accomplishing your goals. What's that quote? "Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." Something like that...

Lastly, visualize and win. Imagine your life after you've accomplished your goal and the universe will help you achieve it. If you see the ball swishing through the basket it increases your chances of that actually happening. So, if I start believing that I'm a movie star and start acting like it, then others will believe it too.

Anyway, check it out. So far, I haven't thought it's been a complete waste of time. If you take away anything, you'll at least have a more positive outlook on life which will make you happier no matter what you do or don't achieve.

So close x2

Welp I had another "close but no cigar" moment yesterday. Things were great and they "had a pin in me" but they decided to go with someone else. So the only thing to do is to just keep going. It's unfortunate that the holidays are quickly approaching which means a break until January, and I feel like I have nothing to show for my whole year. I know that's not true. Obviously this is a huge step in the right direction, but I can't help but be discouraged.

On a happier note, two friends came over last night. We made sushi for dinner and then played Just Dance. Nothing makes me happier than goofing off with friends. :)

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What are you thankful for?

Wow it's Thanksgiving week! I don't know where the entire year went, but here we are at the end of November. With 2013 right around the corner, I've started thinking about where I was 12 months ago. Sometimes I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere, but I know that's far from the truth. Things have been a little slow, well more like a lot slow, but I'm still proud of how far I've come. Last December, I book my first major acting job. Then, in January, I signed with a great talent agency. I've also been in acting classes and can definitely see improvement. I've gone on almost 30 auditions this year and have made really good relationships with some casting directors and even impressed a few producers. I think that's a pretty productive year. I'm just very fortunate and thankful for all of these opportunities. It is Thanksgiving after all...

How old am I?

I get it. I look younger than I really am. But how old do I really look? Or rather, how young can I really look? I have an audition tomorrow to play 12-14. Yup, that's more than 10 years younger than I actually am, and personally I think 15 is a stretch.  But 12?! Are you crazy?! My manager says that I can pass for a 14 year old and this is "TV 14" we're talking about here, not real life 14. I'm still not convinced, but I guess we'll see. What are preteens wearing these days?

My Breakfast with Audrey Hepburn

I watched Breakfast at Tiffany's for the first time today. I know...it's a classic, and I'm a little embarrassed that I've never seen it before. I've actually never seen a lot of classics before, so I'm doing my best to change that. I decided to start with this one since it's on Netflix, and I recently went to Madame Tussaud's wax museum in Hollywood and posed with a wonderful sculpture of Audrey Hepburn. I'm sure a lot of you will disagree with me, but it was just OK in my opinion. Yes it was cute, but I'm not adding it to my favorites. I do have to admit that Audrey is charming and completely lovable in spite of the fact that her character is flighty and just a tad annoying. And that poor cat...

Finally Fall

Yay it's finally fall in Los Angeles! I had such a hard time getting out of bed this morning because I was so comfy under the covers. Now, I'm so excited to be able to pile on cozy layers and wear my boots without looking silly. I'm such a major boot person. Oh, and I had my first gingerbread latte of the year yesterday at Starbucks. Smiles all around!

Puppy Backpack

Since the name of this blog is just ":)," mostly because I couldn't think of a clever name, I figured I'd share some things that make me smile. Sometimes it's the littlest things that can brighten my day, and this is definitely one of them. I don't know any puppy that would calmly hang out like that, but this made me smile today. 

Beach in November

I can't believe how hot it is in Los Angeles right now! The weather is really starting to freak me out. Global warming at its finest I guess. It's still summer in November! And then it's supposed to be back to the 60s later this week. I know, I know...why am I complaining about gorgeous sunny weather right? It's not so bad except for the fact that my place doesn't have any air conditioning. I'll probably head to the beach a little bit later once it gets too hot up here. Not too shabby, eh?

How's your journey going?

Ohhh I got 7 views on October 24th. I'm coming up in the world!

Anyway, I didn't end up getting that part. They decided to "go in a different direction" which really has nothing to do with me, but I can't help but take it personally. I've just gotten so frustrated lately, and I have no idea what to do about it. I work hard, am prepared for auditions, take classes, and anything else I can imagine, so how does it come so easily to other people? But I just have to remind myself that you never know what their journey was like, and to never compare your beginning to someone else's middle.

Close, but no cigar

Ugh post-audition thoughts are the worst. First of all, they either liked you or you didn't, and I can't control that. The only thing I can control is how prepared I was and if I felt like I did a good job or not. The problem with that is my evaluation of how I did is obviously based on how they responded. So either they liked me or they didn't. So let's say I just got a "thank you" and I leave. In which case I feel like I bombed it. Then I go into the downward spiral of thinking that I suck at life and will never get anywhere. Poop. Or I just tell myself that it is what it is and move on. Obviously the healthier option. Now here's where I get a little crazy. What if I did a great job. The casting directors loved me, and I get a callback, and the producers loved me, and my agent gets an email saying how much everyone loved me. Yay! I'm on top of the world, right? For about five seconds after which I start banging my head against the wall waiting for the call saying that I booked it. Everyone loved me! Why haven't I gotten the call?!?! It's funny how being so close feels so much worse than completely missing the mark.

The grass is always greener

Sheesh I've been so busy for the past two days. Especially since I live kind of far from the city, when I do have a few things to do in LA, I'll stay out all day. I've learned not to waste time at the mall because I always end up buying something I don't really need. Now, I'm seriously looking forward to doing nothing tomorrow. But then I'll go crazy doing nothing. It's a vicious cycle...I guess the grass really is always greener on the other side.

Hello out there!

Ha, I'm not sure what compelled me to check on this blog. Especially since I haven't posted in a year. I was incredibly surprised to see that I've actually gotten 12 pageviews in the past month. Whoever you are that's visiting my blog, thanks but there's nothing interesting here. I was actually hoping that no one visited this site so I could air out some things going on in my life. Yes, I have a diary but there's something empowering about declaring my feelings out to the public.

So what's been going on with me? I'm an actress, living in Los Angeles. I also like to bake and go shopping, passions you can read about on my other blog, liveabovetheclouds.onsugar.com. Other than that, I'm just trying to figure out life like everyone else.